Still Anxious

Last night went in crying...

I was playing tennis first and then in bar my friends. Couple beers, chatting and so on - I had really good time in general. When I got home I talked with H first time for couple weeks (as she has been away). I had opportunity to tell her that I have missed her.

Later I talked with N too. I don’t know why but I just felt anxious. I got impression that she had something else to do or just wasn’t too eager to talk with me. I asked if she was busy. She said she wasn’t. I asked if I was bothering her. She said I wasn’t at all.

It still didn’t help my mood... I guess I feel ashamed. I just don’t feel right or react right...

My mind makes the world an awful place.