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Now I'm really down... I feel really ill. I have troubles breathing and feel like someone had put my chest on screwbench... I have cried a lot and thrown up twice. I just hate it when people hurt me and they don't even notice what they did and I cant say it... I get hurt from so little things that it wouldn't make sense to other people... especially as the thing that triggers it isn't prolly the actual reason... I drank rest of brandy I got. Hopefully I'm better tomorrow. Cant stand this. Why did this have to happen right now - this weekend? I'll go to the spa alone. I don't want to take anyone with. I just wish people would understand how badly they hurt me.