Friday

I dont know how to write about this...

I hurted H yesterday. She didnt even answer to my apologies after that. She knows this blog so it's a bit hard to write about this here.

I cried whole last night. I have been crying today too. I'm totally lost with what I should think or feel now.

I spend 12 hours at work and university yesterday. I should do about same today. I havent even started yet. I guess I wont. I'm just sliding through different feelings without being able to grasp a single rational thought.

I'm trying to think about some excuse so that I wouldnt need to go to my parents tomorrow. I cant go there and cry all the time and ruin everyones christmas.