Cant think any title...

I'm now without any antidepressants.

I feel I have a lot to say but I cant seem to write anything fancy now... I was very anxious yesterday. All the normal breathing difficulties and chest pains but also now feeling like limbs would freeze. My right arm felt really numb.

I sat in bathroom with knife. I wasnt going to hurt myself in anyway. Though I almost fantasized about it. But just having the knife and not using it was somehow comforting.

Then I took the maximum dose of anxiety medicine + some extra and managed to get sleep.