Bad Day Yesterday

Really bad day yesterday. I cried so hard again that I got those spots all around my eyes... small bruises... I managed to go to work anyway. I hope I didnt look as bad as I felt. Now I have calmed down but still not ok. I tried to masturbate but I couldnt get orgasm at all.

I want to just go on and try next medicine and hopefully it will make me feel better instead of more restless and numb.