Feeling Better

Yesterday I felt stronger and more confident again. I'm not going to let myself get worse anymore this time. I don't want to have suicidal or self-harming thoughts and I don't want to live through those feelings of shame after them.

I had my story returned from editor. There was only some language polishing - story itself was good enough already. Now I need just to submit it anymore. Nice. One, way too much delayed, project over then.

I have now chatted two nights in row with C. Don't really know what I should write about it. Or if I should write at all. Both times it has went to cybering and masturbating. Perverted little night hobby it seems. Those chat sessions would become into nice stories though.