I guess I have couple friends less again.

I dont understand how someone claim to care about and like me but in same time not really wanting to be in any contact.

I think about certain persons every day. Several times per day. And I just hurts to know that they want to avoid me.

My life seems to be in a point of collapsing. People are getting away from me. I cant handle work anymore. I still havent got any therapist or money for it. Im in worse and worse mood and it makes more and more people wanting to avoid me.

Abandon the sinking ship - me...