Kind Of Back

I guess I could turn commenting back on...

I have been really bad lately. Had one drinking day this week. After some alcohol I ate all my anxiety meds I had left (maybe 10 or so) as couple didnt help enough. I threw up later and felt very sick through the next night. Nothing harmful. Not really even trying a suicide. Just more like "I dont care" feeling.

At least it took anxiety away for a while.

But of course it came back quickly. Cant seem to get over it now at all. :(

I still havent managed to get new doctor time or psychologist time. So Im just waiting without any idea what will happen next. I went to emergency reception to get more anxiety meds. It worked. So Im more or less in same situation where I was last week...

Sorry for this.