Back In Writing

I want to start by saying that Im really sorry I havent written here much lately.

I broke down.

Medicine isnt helping at all right now. Instead I seem to only get side effects. I have no idea when I'll get into therapy. I still try to trust that they will contact me within 2 months like they promised 1 month ago.

Just that last time they promised to contact me within some period of time they never did...

I broke up with M.

Last week I told several people Im really feeling anxious. None of them tried to contact me after that or never asked how I feel.

Yesterday I cried so hard that I got bruise like spots all around my eyes.

Not much good things right now.