No One To Talk With

I really have no one to talk with when I really need it...

No one knows about my everyday life anymore. No one close to me is interested how I'm doing. If I would kill myself today it would probably take couple weeks at least before anyone would start to wonder where I am.

I dont know if I will ever have anyone with who I could talk about "anything". I seem to be a great in losing such persons. And it hurts. And I dont want to get hurt more. I'm suffering enough already.