i dont even know why to continue writing this blog
everyone are bored with me
i dont think i can ever be cured
maybe with therapy i would learn to hide all of this
just to be what others want to see like i used to
i dont think i can go back to there
and i know well enough that closer people get to me, less they like me
i just start to cry when i think about some people who used to be my friends
now they dont want to see or hear about me anymore
i hate them
i hate them for hurting me